Weird Day

So today has been one of those days where I keep thinking about what I want my life to be. I went to church for the first time in a while because work has been preventing that. I was sitting there thinking, man I really miss being able to come here all the time. I was also looking around and seeing how much things are changing and seeing that all of the young people around me were paired off. Now I know that that is the last thing that I should be thinking about while I was at church but for some reason I just kept thinking about it. Why isn't that me? Thats all that was going through my head. Made me want to get on this healthy kick even faster so that I can get the weight off and maybe guys would be more interested in me if I looked that way. That isn't the main reason I want to lose weight but it is a part of it. I figure once I start loving myself and my body then guys might start doing the same thing. I am so ready to find that special someone and start a family of my own. I am so ready to finish school already so that I can start the life I was meant to live. I am just ready for it to be  my turn. As cheezy as that might sound, its true!