A little Homesick

So yesterday I drove home to do some work for the radio station. I forgot how much I love this job! I spent the night with Brynlee and Kyler last night and man do I miss them. They are so funny. They both kept asking Summer if they could sleep with me and they were so worried that we wouldn't have time to play with each other while I was here so they wanted to try and cram it all in the first night. We of course had to play outside in their play house and Brynlee wanted me to be the customer in her restaurant. She made my food out of play dough. She made me mac and cheese, which she literally sculpted, corn dogs, and plastic chicken nuggets. It was so cute! Kyler can't even handle how excited he is that I am here. He doesn't want to go anywhere without me and is just full of energy. It really makes me miss being around them all the time. I know that I can't be around them all the time forever but I wish I could. I would totally do that if it didn't mean moving back to Carlsbad. That is the last thing that I want to do. Lubbock has been good for me. Jordan has helped me grow in so many ways and I am very grateful to have a friend like her. I don't know what I would do without her. She encourages me on a daily basis and pushes me to be the best that I can be. I can't wait to start school at the same time she does so that we can push each other and be successful. Even though I miss home sometimes and the way Brynlee and Kyler light up when I am around (making me feel extremely special and important), its my time to make something of myself. I will be 24 on Monday and not only with I age a year but my whole life is going to change that day. I can't wait to see where life takes me and I know that with great friends, great family, and an even GREATER GOD, my life is going to be a very exciting adventure!

Swollen but good

So Tuesday I had two soccer games. The games were going great and I had scored like 2 or 3 goals. I was after the ball and went right into the wall as my ankle turned. I was so proud cause I didn't shed a tear. Just got up and walked to the side line. Its a bit swollen today and still really sore but I am definitely powering through. Yesterday I took my certification test for my CNA and I passed! Wahoo so today I uploaded my resume to Covenant's website and applied for 2 jobs. Hopefully I get a call about at least one of them. It will pay more than my current job and if I can get it I can work that job on the weekends while I'm in school. Get some experience under my belt, make some good connections, and be able to be doing what I love. I'm so excited and I hope that it works out! 
I also leave on Wednesday to head home and get my car back, work my radio gig, come back Thursday to pick up Jordan and hit the road for Six Flags. I just have this feeling that its going to be a really good week! 

Potty Training Sucks

So I have this super cute puppy and she is so cuddly and lovey but I have one big problem with her. She is not picking up on this potty training thing! She knows that she is not supposed to go in the house because as soon as she does, she runs and hides. I just am having a really hard time getting her not to pee and poop in the house. My room smells now cause of her. Anyone have any suggestions on how to fix the problem?


I have been sitting home all day doing nothing the past few days because I haven't had work and I am bored to death! I can't stand being home all day with nothing to do. I am ready for school to get here so that I can get busy again and have something to do. This Saturday, I have my CNA certification exam. Then I have to hurry and try and get my TB test done. I went in and already had it done but didn't get to get it read because of a last minute need to go to the dentist. Now I have to do it all over again and I have to go get it Monday morning, get it read Wednesday morning and get the paperwork straight to the school. Then from there I get to drive to Artesia to do a few remotes, get back to Lubbock and pick up Jordan than hit the road and go to Dallas. I'm excited about Dallas for sure! Come home and its my birthday :) then work as much as I can before school starts on the 16th. I'm just ready for it to start so bad!!! Its crazy I know but its true. I'm getting very impatient. Jordan and I walk into Wal-Mart and I see all the school supplies and it makes me ever more excited.

Weird Day

So today has been one of those days where I keep thinking about what I want my life to be. I went to church for the first time in a while because work has been preventing that. I was sitting there thinking, man I really miss being able to come here all the time. I was also looking around and seeing how much things are changing and seeing that all of the young people around me were paired off. Now I know that that is the last thing that I should be thinking about while I was at church but for some reason I just kept thinking about it. Why isn't that me? Thats all that was going through my head. Made me want to get on this healthy kick even faster so that I can get the weight off and maybe guys would be more interested in me if I looked that way. That isn't the main reason I want to lose weight but it is a part of it. I figure once I start loving myself and my body then guys might start doing the same thing. I am so ready to find that special someone and start a family of my own. I am so ready to finish school already so that I can start the life I was meant to live. I am just ready for it to be  my turn. As cheezy as that might sound, its true!

Bright Future

Lately, Jordan and I have really been talking about making a big change in our lives. She is waiting for the call telling her that she got into PTA school while I am about to embark on nursing school yet again. We both want a huge change to happen and we are so excited about making the change. We have a big trip coming up in a few weeks that we are so excited about taking. It is a chance to get away and have some fun before we have to come home and begin living the life of the student who never stops studying. After returning from our trip, we plan on giving up cokes, eating healthy, and starting our new diet and exercise plan. If all goes the way we have it mapped out, our goal will be met before December 1st and we can't wait for that to happen. It is going to take a lot of discipline and hard work but that is part of the thrill. The end results will be well worth it. I know I can't wait for this transformation to take place and neither can she. Goodbye old self! I won't miss you!

One Body Many Parts

In 1 Corinthians 12 starting in verse 12, the bible talks about the body being a unit made of many parts. Each part has its own function. In verse 26 it says "If one part suffers, every part suffers with it". The past few days, especially today, I have had this horrible tooth ache. A tooth is so small and seems so insignificant. One tooth shouldn't cause so much pain and shouldn't make the whole body suffer. Yet that is exactly how it feels. One small tooth is causing so much suffering. It hurts and makes it hard to think or sleep. The lack of sleep makes it hard to function and the rest of the body to feel tired. It leaves me not wanting to move or do anything at all.
The body of Christ is just the same. Though we may feel so small and insignificant, our suffering is not insignificant. Today my sister told me that one of her friends passed away. This friend was a young mother of 7 children, one of which was still nursing. The loss came at a huge shock to everyone and it really starts making you appreciate the life you have. I didn't know this friend, but because my sister is hurting, I hurt with her. It goes to show that when one part of the body suffers, the other parts suffer with it.

So Yesterday

I had a really bad day yesterday. I didn't start off with my God time like I have been, I went to lunch with the roommate and the problems just started hitting. $271 later, I was in a completely bad mood and went to try and run it off. Started feeling better after the run and then went to Tuesday night softball league. The game was horrible!!! I can honestly say that no matter how much I like playing softball, this team is not worth playing on. I'm not very good at the losing thing.


I feel like Satan knew that I was starting to build a good relationship with God and that my life was getting better so he decided that when the rain began to fall, it pours and floods. I just hope a day like yesterday never happens again!!!

The Story of your Life

Is this the end?
Or only the beginning?
The second chance
You never thought you'd get

The question is
Will you do something with it
Or spend your days
Lost in your regreat

This is the story of your life
You decide
How the rest is gonna read
This is your chance between the lines
To redefine what kind of legacy you leave
This is the story of your life
And it's a story worth telling

Breathe in deep
Feel your heart still breathing
Let's go see the reason you're alive
Oh, you are here
and love is up to something
So take your fear
and leave it all behind

This is the story of your life
You decide
How the rest is gonna read

This is your chance between the lines
To redefine what kind of legacy you leave
This is the story of your life
And it's a story worth telling

This is the joy
And it's the pain
And all the pages in between
Your finest hour
Your weakest moment
It where you've been
It's where you are
It's where you're going

This is the story of your life
You decide
How the rest is gonna read
This is your chance between the lines
To redefine the kind of legacy you leave
This is the story of your life
Go tell the story of your life
Cause it's a story worth telling
It's worth telling

Is this the end?
Or only the beginning?

Good Morning

Oh Lord I thought the day would never come.
When I could lay my burdens down and walk with you.
This morning as I greet the rising sun, the fondest of my dreams have all come true.
The greatest friend you'll ever find is on the lonely mountaintop
The highest high you'll ever reach is when you kneel to pray to God
The brightest light you'll ever see is when you close your eyes real tight
Oh Lord you are my first love at last I realize
Oh Lord I need a mountain to climb on
Just a quiet place to go and know your there
Oh Lord I need to spend some time with you
Jesus spent the night with you in prayer


Father God
Just for today
Help me walk the narrow way
Help me stand where I might fall
Give me the strength to hear your call
May my steps be worship
May my thoughts be praise
May my words bring honor to your name.


This morning I woke up 30 minutes earlier than planned so that I could spend 30 minutes with God. I read some passages out of my bible and wrote in my prayer journal. I started off my day thinking about God and asking him to give me strength and to help me maintain a good attitude at work. I also asked that he help me shine his light and share his love with the people I encounter. I woke up with these two songs in my head and I found it appropriate. I think that the second song needs to be a prayer I say everyday. I can already tell that by starting my day with God, my day is increasingly better. I plan on ending my day with God, just the way I did last night. I have challenged myself to start and end my day with God. Included in that challenge is to read my bible the whole way through since I have never done that before. I really want to fall in love with my God all over again and I want to lose myself in Him. I am working on changing my lifestyle all the way around. I want a better relationship with God and I am trying to get healthy. I am beginning to work out with a trainer and am going to work towards my goal weight as well as possibly running a marathon. I can't wait to see where God takes me! Its time to start Defying Gravity!

The Song In My Head

http://youtu.be/prDuH01qENc

My Goal

In about a month I will be starting nursing school. My experience with school has not been one that I am proud of and I am trying to prove to myself and my family that I can do this. I haven't told my dad nor my oldest sister that I am even going to start nursing school so that I can keep as much negative energy away from my goal. As far back as I can remember, nursing has been a dream of mine and I am not going to let anyone get in the way of that. 
One day I would love to follow one of the verses that defines me. "... to preach the word of God and heal the sick" Luke 9:2 I feel that God has called me to proclaim his love and his word through nursing and that is what I want to do more than anything. 
I have never been good at sharing my feelings with people and tend to be that person who bottles everything up. I have found that writing things down really helps with my stress and allows me to get my feelings out without having to hurt anyone around me. My goal with this blog is to share my journey of nursing school, finding myself, and striving to be a Godly woman in a world that tells us otherwise. 
One of my main mottos is to Defy Gravity. I got this saying from my favorite musical, Wicked, but I really feel that it defines the way that I want to live my life. To Defy Gravity means to not allow others to determine how you live your life or who you are. In Romans 12:2, we are told to not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. To me Defying Gravity encourages me to not conform to this world. I am going to make it my mission to write everyday to share my journey and what I encounter through out my journey. May God be glorified in everything that I do and everything that I share.