Update

Well, I thought I would keep up with this blog a lot better but things have gotten so busy that I never really get on the computer anymore except to check my grades, which I do on my phone most of the time. It has been a long past few weeks. They definitely like to keep us busy. It feels like we have a big test to study for every single day. I surprise myself with how little TV I am watching, but I tend to use Friday afternoons to catch up on all the shows I have missed during the week. I am hoping that this weekend I can use my time wisely and study for my exams as well as get ahead on my notecards and drug cards. I haven't done very good at keeping up with the drug cards and they are due on the 7th, eek! This morning my stomach is just in knots because I am so nervous about the two tests that I have today. I know that I know the information pretty well but I want to make sure to do good. Right now I have a high B in A&P and if I can make an A on this exam today and an A on my final then my teacher thinks I can get my A back in the class but at this point, I am very happy with a B. I have 2 final exams next week and 3 tests on top of that. Its going to keep me very busy. Tomorrow morning however, I start my new job at the hospital. I am only going to really be working one day a week but it will be good experience and it will get my foot in the door for sure. I am pretty excited about it but nervous as well. Well I have to go look over my stuff for my test today but I wanted to catch everyone up on what is going on with me. I pray that God will help me to recall of the information that I have studied and that he will keep me calm and focused on what is important. 

To a New Beginning

Today is my last day working at the hotel. I think they are keeping me on staff so that I can help out if I ever want to or if they ever need me but its pretty much my last day. I am excited about that! I got the new job working at the hospital and I get to make my own schedule. Its going to be a great experience, good money, and will help me be more successful in the way that I want to be.

Today is also a day that I am excited about because my sister and her family are here. I am so ready to go and spend time with them. I really miss them a lot. It really is difficult going from seeing them everyday to seeing them ever once in a while. The kids are growing up way to fast but luckily they still love me! Kyler is still "Becca's Boy" and Brynlee is just too darn cute. Last night she was telling me who they were going to be for Halloween but she couldn't tell me without changing her accent to be like theirs. She said "Kyler is going to be Ron and I am going to be Hermione. Ethan is going to be Harry Potter". She then proceeded to tell me things that Hermione would say like "Its not leviosA but leviOsa. Lengardium Leviosa!" It was so stinking cute! Made me grin from ear to ear! I told Summer that she needs to be Professor McGonagle. It just fits perfectly. I asked Kyler about being Ron and they told me that they play "squidditch" on the trampoline and he said Gryffindor wrong too but I don't remember the exact wording he used. It was just too cute. Put me in the best mood and really made me miss being around them all of the time. I just wish they didn't live in Carlsbad so that I could be around them. I think that both of my sisters, their families, and I all need to move to the same place so that we can be around each other all the time.

Well off to working now!

Special Day

About 16 years ago, I went to church camp in Sacramento NM. Little did I know back then, that I would be making a friend who would last a lifetime. Friendships come and go, but nothing has ever been able to get in the way of this one. Today is that very special friends birthday and I want to tell her how much she means to me. 


Friend, 
First of all, I want you to know that I miss you so much. You have always been there for me and are one of my biggest inspirations. You have always inspired me to be a better person and a better christian. We have shared a lot together. We have had our share of tears and more laughs than anyone can count. Wether it be singing at the top of our lungs in the car, spending quality time at the creek, piling up a mound of change on a table for a tip, or talking about boys, spending time with you was always very special to me. I wish that I could spend more time with you, but for some reason you felt the need to move across the US from me :( I thought you had learned your lesson when you moved across the world twice but I guess not. :) LOL. You are such an amazing woman and I am so excited for you and what is to come very shortly. You are going to be an amazing mother and that baby is so lucky to have such wonderful parents. I hope that your special day today is one that you will always remember. I want you to never forget how much of an impression you have made in my life and especially never forget how much I love you! I hope to talk to you soon! For now, I will just leave you with these small quotes to make you smile:
- Her name is Noel, I had a dream about her, she rings my bell, got gym class in heaven now you know how she rocks, in keds and tube socks...
- Woke up in the morning, put on some new plastic gloves, served some reheated salsbury steak, with a little slice of love. Got no clue what the chicken pot pie is made of... 
- Thumbs up, elbows back, knees bent, knees together, bum out, head back, tounge out :) 


I love you friend! 

Surprise!

So it turns out that the test I thought I completely bombed yesterday was the exact opposite! I got an A. Surprise!!! I am in such a better mood today than I was yesterday. I was so stressed about getting a bad grade and now that stress can be completely gone! It was pretty funny, today we went to the Baptist Student Ministry lunch (because its $1) and we were all sitting around talking about how she must not have graded them right. And I mentioned that I keep a blog about school and one of the girls said "I wanna read it... wait, you probably talk crap about us on there huh?!" So this is me talking crap about them LOL. Yeah right! I really like the friends I have made in this program and I don't think that I would be successful without them. Tonight 2 of them are coming over for a new smaller study group and I am going to cook them dinner. We have a test tomorrow and since it is only over one chapter, it will be either really easy or really hard. I just want to make sure that I am prepared either way! Bring it on ANS, I am ready for you! 

The Climb

Yesterday was really hard for me. I went into a test feeling completely unprepared even though I did study and I studied with my study group. I just felt completely lost in the material and it all just made me want to cry. I came out of the testing room and found everyone talking about how that test was so hard. They all felt that if they would take the first part of the test away they would have done better. Luckily I wasn't alone in my feelings. I hate coming out of a test feeling that way. 

I know its going to sound very cheesy but I was talking to one of the girls in my class because she commented on the paper that I have printed off on pretty paper in my binder. Its the words to Francesca Battistelli's Free to be Me because I just feel that the lyrics pretty well describe me. After yesterday though, I realize that the words to Miley Cyrus' song The Climb really described the journey that I am on right now and we were talking about how the lyrics were so true to all of us right now. I just decided that I really wanted to share them with you so I want you to really read the words and think about it. Don't just be like "eh, I have heard that song and I don't like Miley Cyrus". Really read the words. 

"The Climb"

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah 

Butterflies in my Stomach

Well I got the word today that I will be able to quit my job. When I got to work today, none of the managers were here so I typed up a very professional and nice letter explaining that I am putting in my 2 weeks notice and why I am leaving. It makes me so nervous to quit. I like the people at my job and I don't want to hurt any of their feelings but making this decision is going to be so much better for me in the long run. I just wish it were easier to do. I wish I could do it and not care what anyone else thinks about it.

So work tonight and tomorrow and then I am in for a few nights of studying and off to begin week 2 of school. Its crazy because there are already people wanting to quit the program and it is only week one. I am not going to be one of those people! I am going to be successful this go round and I am not going to let anything get in my way!

Week 1 Completed!

Well, they don't go easy on you the first week, thats for sure. I however, have come out on top of this week. I did well on all 3 tests we have had this week and have done well on all of the quizzes as well. I have like 3 more tests next week as well... its going to be crazy! I looked ahead at our schedule and noticed that we pretty well have 3 tests a week for most of the semester. We formed a study group last night and it really helped out a lot. I think this is the first time I have every walked away from those two kinds of tests feeling very confident in myself and how I did. 


I am hoping that I will be able to stop working soon so that I can really focus on school and only school. I'm just waiting on one thing to get worked out, which I really pray that it will, and then I can take that leap of faith. I am so determined and motivated to do well this year! 


On the church side, I really have found that I fit into this crossover group and am making some good friends. I look forward to getting to know them better and growing closer to them. So to end off this entry, life is good right now. Sleep deprived? A little yes. Stressed? A little yes, which having to work all weekend is making it worse.