On the Move

Moving is never easy. You have to first pack everything, which seems to take forever, and you tend to find more and more stuff that you didn't even know you had. Then once the packing is over, you have to load it all up, ask for help, and move it to the new location. Whether it is to another city or just across town, the whole process can be very frustrating. I would know, I have done it way too many times. I am a pro when it comes to moving. I have been out of high school since 2005 and including same town moves, I have moved 14 times. That is crazy talk! I might as well never unpack so it makes it easier the next go round. At the beginning of the month, I made the move back to my hometown. I always said I would never come back here. Never say never right?!? I came back to pursue my RN since I am only an LVN and this program is the fastest and cheapest one I know. Due to some unnecessary drama with my dad and his wife, I ended up moving in with my sister. I think this will be the best situation in the long run but I know it will not be easy. I am going to love seeing the kids all of the time but I can't let that ruin the focus I need to have on my studies. I also had to leave behind a job that I loved and friends that I was just starting to get close to. This was the hardest part of leaving. I started a new job that is so different from the one I had before. I tend to find myself bored out of my mind and wondering if this was the right job for me. I know finding an LVN job here in this town isn't easy and this is the better choice than some of the others but I am not used to the slow pace of the job and it is driving me crazy!!! I need to get away for a while and luckily I am about to do just that. In 11 days I am leaving this small town for Houston so that the next morning I can get up early and fly to NYC!!! One of my favorite places in the world!! I could stay there and never leave! I love the big city life! I have this feeling that it is going to be a life changing trip but I will have to wait and see. I am trying not to get my hopes up! I love my life, even though its crazy and hectic, and God seems to send me here there and everywhere. I love the chaos I suppose. I know that I wont be leaving this small town for at least 9-10 months but I can't wait to see what this year brings and where next summer takes me.

Life is crazy and God is good!

The last time that I posted on here, I talked about losing weight. That is one thing that I am not the best at, for sure. I struggle with the diet part of it. I don't like being on a diet (who does?). I have goals that I want to meet and plans of when I want to meet them by, but it is definitely something I struggle with. However, one thing major that has changed in my life goes by the name of Michael. He is the love of my life and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. He is an amazing guy who encourages me to be better every day. We have the same morals and it makes being in a relationship so much easier. I mean seriously, we have been together for 5 months and we haven't (in my sisters words) had a "real" kiss. No pressure. I didn't know relationships could be like this. He is in the Air Force and if I am going to be with a man who could be sent somewhere at a drop of the hat, getting my RN is even more important. I know finding a job as an LVN is super tough outside of this area. I have made the hard decision to quit my job (which I love) and move home to live with my sister, work full time, and finish up my RN. It is going to be a huge change but I am looking forward to see where God takes me.

A New Leaf

You know it is so easy at the beginning of the year for people to say how they are going to get healthy and lose weight etc... I don't want to be that person who makes these goals and promises and doesn't live up to them. I am turning over a new leaf altogether. Not just weight and getting healthy but my life in general. 

This past year, I went to school and earned my LVN which was a huge step towards reaching my dream. On Monday, I am going back to school so that I can continue my nursing degree and get my BSN. I found out this year that I have an autoimmune thyroid disease and that has been a big part of all of the problems that I have had over the years. I have started a new medication so that I can get all of this under control. I started weight watchers towards the end of last year and am already down 14 pounds. Now, I signed up for a 5K called the color run with a group of people from work and a few other friends. So I have to make myself start running so that I can keep up with everyone else. 

Things are going to get better. I have also made the decision that I am going to make sure that the next relationship that I am in, is done the right way. I am not going to let any of the physical stuff get in the way. I am reclaiming my body and my mind and will be saving myself for my wedding night. Someone told me today that the world doesn't do that anymore and I should just give up on that notion and that no guy is going to wait. They also said that is why everyone is getting divorced, because they are not sexually satisfied. They are open to their opinion. It makes me want to stick to my morals even more and hold myself accountable even more! Like I said a new year, a new leaf, a new me. I can't wait!