Sunday, October 14, 2012
Stuck In The InBetween
Today's lesson at church hit me a little different than usual. He spoke about us being stuck in the inbetween. Some of us between dating and getting married, between graduation and a real job, or any of the sort. I'm sort of in between all of it. I'm not dating, not married, have a real job now but don't feel like I am really moving forward at all. It's a weird feeling because part of me is not okay with where I am and yet part of me is. It has been weighing on me so much lately. I feel like I'm just stuck in a rut. Then today, the preacher speaks about exactly that. He tells us to say "It could be worse." Well yeah, it could be worse, you are right. He said we are in too much of a hurry to get to where we are going and we don't enjoy the journey. Okay, I get it, I need to stop and smell the roses. Yet, I understand what he is saying and I understand that I need to see that this journey isn't on my time, but God's time. What should take 11 days could take 39 years. I need to grow and learn and really embrace the journey instead of trying to make it so quickly til the end. God knows what he is doing, and although I find myself constantly wondering "when will it ever happen for me or will it ever happen for me" I have to embrace the fact that it might or it might not but God knows what he is doing and I have to learn to be okay with that and embrace the journey. I have to embrace being stuck in the inbetween. It's not about how fast I get there, it is about who I become along the way. Time In Between
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Almost Over
Wow! I can't believe how time flies! We officially have 60 days until graduation which is crazy! I am so ready for it to be done!!! Burn out sucks and I am totally catching senioritis really badly! Just moved to a new house and am absolutely loving it... now I am training for a sprint triathlon and am going head to head with my sister to see who can lose the biggest percentage of weight loss by graduation. Got a lot to do and not a lot of time to do it in. Gotta get to work but will blog again when I can.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Updated!
I am so bad about remembering to get on here with school being so crazy hectic. So I guess an update is very much needed.
Well I just about made it through the second semester of the program. It has been a crazy ride and we have lost some great people. I have discovered new ways to succeed this semester and this summer session should be much better when it comes to my time management. I didn't do bad this semester but I feel like it should have been better. The most important thing is I made it. I have one more final in the morning that I have been studying for and will study for all day today so that I can be successful tomorrow! We were told that the summer session will go by fast and I really hope that it does. We officially start that semester on Monday. I am actually really excited and want to get going so that I can get done. I had to go pick up my cap and gown yesterday and it just made me realize how close I really am. We have to walk with the college commencement on May 11th but we dont officially get pinned until August 17th, and you better believe I am counting down the days. Only 107 more days til I get pinned!!! Yay!!!! I am so grateful that God has allowed me the opportunity to go back to nursing school and that he has been with me every step of the way. I know that I couldn't have done it without Him! There has been such a difference this time around and I really feel that it was because I approached it differently. I started this with God on my side. I prayed fervently that He would be my guide and that he would help me to calm down and focus as well as give me the knowledge to understand and remember the things that I study so that I could be successful. Without Him, I know it would not be possible. I am also very grateful that he gave me classmates who truly care about me and want to help me succeed as well as me help them to be successful. I never thought I would be the person who gets to school 3 hours early in the morning to sit in my car and study with a friend until right before the test, but I have become that person and it has worked so well for me so far. I don't know where I would be without my new study group. They have made all the difference. I am sad that we lost a member but I know that she will be successful when she decides to go back and finish it out!
As for the rest of my life, we are currently working on making a move to a house. I am so over apartment life. Jordan's brother is going to live with us so that rent would be cheaper on all of us. Its going to be very different having someone else in the house, especially a boy. I have never really lived with a boy except my brother in law but he is not your typical boy. My brother in law was the weird one about everything being spotless. We found the perfect house yesterday and are going to go look at one today just to make sure that it is the perfect one. I am so excited. I can't wait to get out of this apartment. Not that this complex hasn't been good to us or that we don't like the apartment, its the apartment life and dogs that are making us insane. Jac and Chloe need a yard to run in so that they can get some of their energy out and not bark everytime someone walks into the building. It will be great to not have anyone sharing a wall with you or have someone living above you that you can hear playing rockband until 3am or hear their phones vibrating. I look forward to that day and I pray that we get this house. I just know that we need to jump on it fast so that it is not gone before we can. I am going to have to start finding boxes and packing soon because the end of the month is going to come fast!
God has really blessed my life and has really molded me into a much better person than I was before and I am so thankful that he has. I love my life right now and wouldn't change it for anything in the world. The only thing that would make it better is to have a significant other. But hey, that will come when God is ready for it to. I will do my best to be patient. Well gotta get back to studying! God is so good!
"He sent them out to preach the word of God and heal the sick" Luke 9:2
Well I just about made it through the second semester of the program. It has been a crazy ride and we have lost some great people. I have discovered new ways to succeed this semester and this summer session should be much better when it comes to my time management. I didn't do bad this semester but I feel like it should have been better. The most important thing is I made it. I have one more final in the morning that I have been studying for and will study for all day today so that I can be successful tomorrow! We were told that the summer session will go by fast and I really hope that it does. We officially start that semester on Monday. I am actually really excited and want to get going so that I can get done. I had to go pick up my cap and gown yesterday and it just made me realize how close I really am. We have to walk with the college commencement on May 11th but we dont officially get pinned until August 17th, and you better believe I am counting down the days. Only 107 more days til I get pinned!!! Yay!!!! I am so grateful that God has allowed me the opportunity to go back to nursing school and that he has been with me every step of the way. I know that I couldn't have done it without Him! There has been such a difference this time around and I really feel that it was because I approached it differently. I started this with God on my side. I prayed fervently that He would be my guide and that he would help me to calm down and focus as well as give me the knowledge to understand and remember the things that I study so that I could be successful. Without Him, I know it would not be possible. I am also very grateful that he gave me classmates who truly care about me and want to help me succeed as well as me help them to be successful. I never thought I would be the person who gets to school 3 hours early in the morning to sit in my car and study with a friend until right before the test, but I have become that person and it has worked so well for me so far. I don't know where I would be without my new study group. They have made all the difference. I am sad that we lost a member but I know that she will be successful when she decides to go back and finish it out!
As for the rest of my life, we are currently working on making a move to a house. I am so over apartment life. Jordan's brother is going to live with us so that rent would be cheaper on all of us. Its going to be very different having someone else in the house, especially a boy. I have never really lived with a boy except my brother in law but he is not your typical boy. My brother in law was the weird one about everything being spotless. We found the perfect house yesterday and are going to go look at one today just to make sure that it is the perfect one. I am so excited. I can't wait to get out of this apartment. Not that this complex hasn't been good to us or that we don't like the apartment, its the apartment life and dogs that are making us insane. Jac and Chloe need a yard to run in so that they can get some of their energy out and not bark everytime someone walks into the building. It will be great to not have anyone sharing a wall with you or have someone living above you that you can hear playing rockband until 3am or hear their phones vibrating. I look forward to that day and I pray that we get this house. I just know that we need to jump on it fast so that it is not gone before we can. I am going to have to start finding boxes and packing soon because the end of the month is going to come fast!
God has really blessed my life and has really molded me into a much better person than I was before and I am so thankful that he has. I love my life right now and wouldn't change it for anything in the world. The only thing that would make it better is to have a significant other. But hey, that will come when God is ready for it to. I will do my best to be patient. Well gotta get back to studying! God is so good!
"He sent them out to preach the word of God and heal the sick" Luke 9:2
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Second Semester Sucks!
This semester is definitely going to test if this is really what I want to do with my life. They keep us very busy and some of the instructors really seem like they want no one to succeed and they really make me hate school. I know I just have one semester left and then the summer and I will be done but there are definitely days where the instructors make me want to give up.
I have 4 tests in the next 2 days to prepare for and I really want for these grades to be good but I know that it is going to be super hard to do. It is definitely hard to stay motivated and on top of things when you are in clinicals all day and then you have homework all night. All I want to do most of the time is stop and watch tv and lay down for a little bit and I have a feeling that might come back to bite me in the butt so I am definitely struggling with that.
I just wish this semester would hurry up and end already.
I have 4 tests in the next 2 days to prepare for and I really want for these grades to be good but I know that it is going to be super hard to do. It is definitely hard to stay motivated and on top of things when you are in clinicals all day and then you have homework all night. All I want to do most of the time is stop and watch tv and lay down for a little bit and I have a feeling that might come back to bite me in the butt so I am definitely struggling with that.
I just wish this semester would hurry up and end already.
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